Leather-studded kiss.

Tattoo your name across my heart so it will remain & thus,
nobody or nothing can ever come between us.
Forevermore, I'll give my life, my love & my trust to you.
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"No matter what I do, all I think about is you"

Apec 2009: my nonya face :)

Gymming while being in 'ring the alarm zone' is undoubtedly, challenging but fantabulous. It does helps to ease the pain, if you know how to manage it. I went bodyjam again & I did have lots of fun, bootyshaking while Jon & donalduckie teased me through the glass window :)  Anyway, I'd better be off mugging now since I promised myself to attain A for accounting (:

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If I could hold you tonight, I would,
like you're mine forevermore.

 xoxo | A night to remember :)

If your love's all I have in this world,
it would be enough for me to breathe on, till the end of time.

xoxo | candyman :)

True personal account; grappling with the loss of the beloved.

It ain't easy; it's only easy said than being done. My heart was in 2's; to hold on or to let go, I had terribly a hard time to decide upon it because I fear of making wrong decisions although I'm aware that it's pretty normal for humans to commit mistakes. Time after time, even though my heart was still beating for him, I felt the love was just fading away & that's when I'm prepared for the worst that could happen which is to let go of him. Each day, I told myself & kept in mind that I should forget him since he doesn't show interest towards our relationship & so I basically don't see the point of waiting. In short, if he loves me, he will do anything to get back at me. It possibly can't be a one-way ticket. Therefore, I stood on firm grounds & instil that principle in my mind which eventually, made me bolder & stronger plus less tearful about the whole course of tragedy which I would describe it as. Another thing I did was to have discipline within me. I strictly adhere to the rules that I'm not gonna compromise to any pityfool shows & discipline is important in this. I also, leave it up to destiny, to choose the path for me & spark miracles that would bring me blessings. I believe that if I'm really fated to be with him, he will surely come back to me, one fine day, if it's not, then I should accept the fate that has already been written for me & certainly, there's no point in fighting against it. The bottom line: One has to be strong; pick yourself up, be determined & fight.

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You changed my whole life; I don't know what you've done to me.

xoxo | gymming plus bodyjam equals LOVE.

E.Lit Paper 5's a major fughead; the only paper, so far, that I'm really not confident in since the A's commenced. I felt like giving up in the amidst of the paper, utterly 'cause, I can't seem to decipher what I'm writing. Then after the paper, when my head was in deep mess, donalduckie texted to inform about instructor's fitness test that I'm supposed to take in the afternoon. I swear I was in pain when I read his text 'cause I was required to complete all the stations which comprised of 10min biking plus sprints, push-ups, sit-ups, pull-ups & 10min fast rowing. The aftermath? I was drained out, totally. So, in order to cheer myself up & relieve the tiredness, I accompanied donalduckie on the wave machine which I taught him to do dangdut at the same time & yes, our laughters were too noisy to distract the other members that were exercising (: I really had a blasting time, gymming, minus the fitness test, huhu. Anyway, it was only today when I realised that I haven't been training with free weights & I gotta start soon since the muscle mass level is decreasing, gradually. The fact I'm paranoid 'cause photoshoots are coming real soon. Satisfied that I started with my strict diet regime back again today but neh, boohoo; it makes me cranky yo due to the cut in sugar content.

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A new sugarcandy companion, from dusk till dawn.
The one who's really sweet & thoughtful enough to cheer me up after the sick paper today (:

xoxo | Paper 1 in 12 hours time